Random Ramblings

So I contemplate this whole blog thing a lot. I sometimes feel like I should just forget about it and not have a blog anymore, cause whats the point, not very many people visit my blog anyway. However, I think its a great way to journal and record cute things about motherhood, or just life in general. So I guess I have to stop thinking of my blog as a place for others to enjoy, but rather a place where I can keep memories.

Our first week home with Baby Ridge was so many things. It was so wonderful, but so so hard. Even tho Tyler was home most of the time, and we had a WONDERFUL friend here helping us, cleaning and taking care of all of us. (THANK YOU KATE!) Both Cole and Bowen got sick, and then Tyler got sick. And we all know I am the most co dependent person in the world, so I can't do a thing without Tylers help. It sounds silly to say how hard it was now that its over, but yah it was rough.

Cole: Cole Man seemed to grow up over night. It was so strange. It was like he was doing and saying things that were so grown up, all of a sudden. So independent. So proud of his little baby brother. So NOT needy of me or Ty. For the last few months of my pregnancy, I would say things like, "Cole , can you pick that up off the floor, Mommy can't bend." ( really I just didn't want to bend cause its uncomfortable with a huge belly.) A day or two after we came home from the hospital, Cole said, "Mommy can you bend now???!!". It was such a cute realization for him. It was even better when he realized that " mommy can dance now", and we danced away at Just Dance on the Wii.

Bowen: oh, those sweet big blue eyes with the eye lashes as long as can be just melt me. Even as I sit and type this, I get teary thinking about that sweet boy. I just KNEW he'd have a hard time with baby brother coming in to our world. It was a hard adjustment for him. Its getting better each day. Someone told me that in a few weeks Bo wouldn't be able to remember a time when Ridge wasn't part of our family, and that does seem to be the case now. The cutest thing Bo says now when he needs to be the one that one of us is holding or giving attention to is, "switch!"

Tyler: how in the world did I ever score you? That sounds weird. But thats what came out. Really tho, there are no words to describe how incredible Tyler is as a husband and father. I KNOW for a fact, that many men wouldn't even consider doing the things he does to help around the house. I am spoiled. And I know it.

This morning I put on some pants, well tried to, that I consider a BIG size for me. And they won't button. I really try to not have that whole part of pregnancy/post partum bother me, but its hard. I KNOW I am only 3 weeks out. BUT, I really tried this pregnancy to NOT "eat for two", in fact, I really watched my eating, and yet, pounds still packed on, and I have a lot to lose. I have decided that for some women, me, it just is out of your control. And for this CONTROL FREAK, thats a hard thing to wrap my brain around. I know it will get better. Especially once I am able to start working out again. I just wish it wasn't a side effect of pregnancy. Thats all.

Ridge is about the sweetest thing ever. He is nursing so well, other than the fact that he pretty much wants to be nursed ALL THE TIME. But he is pretty calm, and not a fussy baby at all. I feel so blessed.

Told ya it was going to be a random rambly post.